What is family really?
To me it is commitment to myself and those that are a part of it. It doesn't mean one has to have blood ties, though yes that is also family...
It is also those I have allowed to get close enough to me that I can talk to them, or they me, about what is on the mind or heart.
It is a willingness to except them for all thier faults, and all thier achievments, and no matter what be there for each for each other.
Even if disagreeing.
For me as a Father it sometimes means being tough in what I have to say or do, voicing not only my own thoughts but those voiced to me.
I am the guide, the shoulder, and all to often the bad guy. Not because I desire to be, but because it is what has to be.
Family means being strong as a whole, it means love unconditional, it means always being there even when you feel you can't anymore.
Family is about pride and honor, not that any of us are always going to feel these things, but it is the foundation just the same.
Now I have learned a lot gaining a "on line" family, being a only child in real it has given me a different view on many things in my day to day life.
As of late I have learned to feel pain as well... To the point of wanting to give up.
Watching my wife cry over cold hurtful words... Being hurt myself because I acted on things that were needed.
Life, love, friendships, are to precious a thing to sit and watch ego's and hard headedness destroy.
Yet I do just that and it truly makes me wonder how the folks doing so could so easily put aside how much they really care for each other.
Well, I can't teach my kids anymore, I can't sit and take being cast aside. I can't keep trying to make things right for everyone.
I can be there for them, but sadly I have to except that my morals are not thiers, and both lives will go on...
Just going to find in time, both lives missing something very special.
Is sad for me, I thought I knew what family meant, now I sit, alone, and wonder...
Kids,
your grown now,
on your own and know so much...
Can you tell and old man,
What family really means?
Tier
May 31st, 2003 |
